Each year, right about now, we all reflect on what was. Good or bad. It always comes down to a checklist of experiences that we think define the last year and how we have grown through each of its 365 days.
This seems to diminish our ability to truly acknowledge what IS. We may be, at this moment, feeling like we are at an end to a time in our lives; labeling such as good or bad. Instead we are really at the apex of what was and what is going to be. At no other time can we really have such a unique opportunity collectively. At this moment we can take the time to really see what we have. We may have pain, debt, loss but we are closing that chapter. Like the pages of a book, we have what happened in mind as we turn the page.
Personally my life has gone through a tremendous amount of changes in these last 365 days. As I sit here and look both backwards at 2016 and forward to 2017 I know that I never planned to be where I am. Again, I take stock in the good of that and not just the bad. I have learned that nothing is guaranteed. My look back has clearly shown me that life, love and friendship take work. HARD WORK. Someone has to write the pages of your story and it best be you.
Looking forward I have a clear set of goals and ideas of where I want to be in a year's time. Yet, with all of that in mind I fully understand that part of that plan is the "no-plan plan". Some reading this may chuckle at that phrase. I used to push against that idea but I never planned on a lot of things in my life. There is a certain degree of faith that comes with letting go a little bit. I still dislike not knowing but can embrace it when life seems to need me to do so.
I sit here as many of you do, eager to see what is awaiting me in the new year. It can be both terrifying and exhilarating. I have hopes and dreams and a healthy fear for choices others will make that will affect the outcome of those goals in the 365 days ahead. I cannot tell you how it will go. No one can. All I can say is I will be thankful for where I am right now and for all the people that helped get me here because none of us can get to where we are headed alone.
All we can really do is take a deep breath, hold onto something that grounds us, and take that leap of faith. Believe.